I have been trying to take President Uchtdorf's advice and have an attitude of gratitude. I am trying to see success with eternal eyes, not with human, impatient eyes. Wow, guys, I have never had such a hard time with investigators just dropping out. I mean, we do everything for them and they know that this church is the answer to greater happiness, and yet they still lack action. I am just at a loss of what to do, other than just continue working patiently. Frustration is such a temptation and self doubt often creeps in. I thought, what am I doing wrong?!!!
I was really thinking, Wow I must be a terrible missionary because we aren't having any success, but I had an awesome experience. My comp's health is kinda falling apart. and she is getting really discouraged. She has a hard time accepting love as well, but she is learning to trust and accept my love. As I was studying with her one morning, I had the strongest impression that right now, she is my most important mission. Sometimes we have to endure things because those around us have something to learn, and we must be there for them to lean on. Right now, my most important job is to love my comp, support her, and be her rock. I must stay positive even when we don't have success....in our eyes....because she is looking to me to know how to react. Sometimes, we think so narrowly that we think our circumstances are only occurring because of us, but in reality, sometimes trials come so to us because we have to be the wall that others lean on. So I will be that wall, and I will smile and will continue to help Sister B see daily miracles. I know that it will change me in the end too :)
Miracles: our less actives are returning, which is just as good as baptism, and Eduardo, a less active member, bore his testimony at church. Woooo.
I hope my English isn't too horrible. I know I'm not super eloquent these days, but Portuguese makes me think in a weird order, haha.
I love you guys sooo much
